Monday, February 25, 2008

Happy Birthday Mama

Mom with her only grandchild... for a while.

Just wanted to wish my mom a Happy Birthday

Love you.

Friday, February 22, 2008

Ok... Now I can't sleep

All I want to do is sleep... and guess what ... I can't. I think being sick, multiple medications and benadryl induced commas today are keeping me from getting the beauty sleep that will not cure what going on with my face (big red patch of Uck under my nose).
So I started thinking .... I wonder with all the bad weather, will that affect Michael being able to come home for the weekend. Here's some pics from Lambert Airport. Not promising but a Girl's gotta have Hope.

Please pray that Michael gets home safe. For his sanity and mine. I think I am going to try and sleep now. ....try being the operative word.


Thursday, February 21, 2008

Good Friends are like a Good pair of Jeans... they just fit

This past weekend, we celebrated with a wonderful couple at their wedding - Congrats Tim & Emily (pics to come). But because of this wedding, friends came in from all over. My friend Pam came in from Colorado. She was able to come over Friday night, while Michael was at the Bachelor Party with the guys.

Our time together is never rushed, uncomfortable and between the two of us... there is NEVER a loss for words. That Pammy and I, were talkers. Pam was the first woman at the church who I spoke to about anything real. She says that I prepared her for hardcore youth ministry. As a new believer - I WAS A MESS and brought that mess to Jesus and didn't really know what to do with that. Pam, in all her innocence, but with all her grace and mercy, listened and prayed and has seen God do an amazing transformation in me. All credit to God!

Pam has become that person who I can share so much with from silly stories of how my dress got caught in my pantie hose to what God is teaching us both. I love having a friend like her who gets as excited as I do about what the Lord is teaching her. We just went back and forth with amazement of the God we serve.

Pam's journey has led her to Colorado, where she is doing amazing things in ministry. She is reaching out to kids like me (when I was in high school). I love hearing the faithfulness of God and how He is working through her obedience and the call He's put on her life.

You really never know how much you miss having a friend like this around until they leave. I love you Pammy - You make my life more hopeful and you always point me in the right direction. Thanks

So you say there's Global Warming.....

I am hit with laughter at the idea of global warming on a day like to day. This is the worst winter St. Louis has had in years. I have been in the mid-west my entire life and I cannot recall a winter with so much snow, sleet, or ice.

Today I got a text at 7am from Covenant Theological Seminary (my work and school) telling me we were closed due to incremental weather. Therefore, I have not left the house all day. I was not upset by this news since it gave me one more day to recover (which is moving very slowly). There is about, what seems to be from my dining room window view, .25" of solid ice covering my car. The joys of winter. I don't know if you know this about me but I HATE WINTER! If it were up to me we'd live in Arizona or near an ocean somewhere like California.

Benefits for warm weather areas:
1. Depending on where you live, limited humidity - good for this curly girl's hair
2. My body won't ache so much. Cold weather is not good for Fibromyalgia
3. I like sunshine
4. My ideal shoe preference would be flip flops all year round
5. I don't care about seasons. I have memories and that's all I need. Also, isn't that what road trips are for.
6. Digging in the sand is better than digging out your car from a snow/ice storm
7. Did I mention it's good for my hair.... big deal ...very big deal
8. Warm weather does not hold you hostage in your house because it's not safe to go anywhere.
9. I would imagine (not proven), people don't get as sick in warm places. If that's not true, don't tell me - I rather live in my dream world - don't burst my bubble.
10. No dry skin, No cracked lips, and I would have a reason to shave my legs.

OBGYN DOCTOR POST
I did not go to my appointment today. I like my OBGYN office way too much to risk infecting them with my disease. So we've rescheduled for March 21st. One more month....and hopefully I'll be able to breathe by then.
I bet they don't have winters like this in Australia!
(that ones for you Mama Jean)

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

I'll be the first to admit....




I am a horrible sick person! I have been home in solitary confinement all day. I slept for two hour incriments from 10pm last night to 3:30 pm today. I have had a 102 degree fever all day. I am achy, drippy, sick of coughing, and overall miserable. I am on a heavy dosage of asprin and Mucinex. And did I mention that I've went through 3 boxes of tissues.




To make matters worse, Michael is gone on a business trip. I have no one to take care of me. Yeah I know what your thinking... I am pathetic. My house is trashed....I have no desire to clean when I am coughing up a lung. I also have no desire or the attention span to read for school when I should be... it's hard to read when all my nose does is drip the minute I put my head down to read.... annoying.


Tuesday, February 19, 2008

And so the Saga continues



Thursday at 1pm I have another OBGYN appointment to have a biopsy of my cervix done, again. I am so sick of this.....I am ready for God to give me the victory in this...like yesterday. Please pray for me and my healing. I'll let you know the results.

Not Doing So Hot

I started feeling sniffly on Sunday after my nap on Sunday.... it's progressed to a full blown cold. I hate feeling like I have someone sitting on my chest....it hurts to breathe. I have tried so hard not to get this - but .....I did not prevail.

So I am sick with no one to take care of me.... Michael is in Alabama...all week. Double Yuck.


And because I don't feel good - this is how I feel as I am suppose to be working until 5 but I've already mentally checked out.

I think I am just going to go home and sleep.... oh yeah - I forgot I have 300 pages to read. Sleeping will have to wait

Thursday, February 14, 2008

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

Or for those of you who are single.... Happy Singles Awareness Day....

Saturday, February 02, 2008

Breaking Free

Only in Christ can we have true Freedom. Yet in our humaness we are held captive by our pasts, burdens, and fears. I feel for the first time God is opening my eyes to the victory He is giving me over the scars of my past. I am healing slowly but surely. I have hope for a new and different life, relationships, and being.

"My Chains are gone, I've been set free, My God my Savior has rescued me"
-Chris Tomlin

Chains can be familiar and even though the they are unlocked and we are free, we stay shackled to them because it is the only way we know. I pray that God gives me the strength to remove the bondage that keeps me from feeling true freedom in Christ and becoming who he wants me to be. I pray the same for you.

May my pain be used for His Purposes to further Glorify the name of Christ.

Friday, February 01, 2008

8 Months of Marriage... and what I've learned so far

I cannot believe that I have been married for 8 months... geeze where does the time go. Well in seriousness and humor here is what I've learned in 8 months of marriage...

1. My love and appreciation for Michael grows every day.
2. I am able to disagree with him without it being a fight
3. He has a real desire to protect me
4. I need to stop getting in the way of him being able to "lead"
5. I look better tan...(looking at honeymoon photos)
6. Silence isn't always bad
7. We will never be on the same sleep cycle. But being tucked into bed isn't just for kids.
8. Even though I am in seminary, I learn a lot about God and His word from my husband's perspective.
9. Grace is needed daily
10. I don't say "I am sorry" or "thank you" enough
11. I don't have to rearrange the dishwasher to my likings after my husband has loaded it. I am learning to be thankful that he loads it.
12. I hate doing laundry even more now...and now I have twice as much
13. I am a lighter sleeper than I though I was.
14. Michael and I both need time with our friends
15. He makes me laugh harder than anyone
16. He makes me feel radiant, when I don't feel so hot.
17. Sacrifice isn't as hard as I thought it was, when I know it will make things better in the long run.
18. I can get by on not shopping every season... I do miss it though
19. God is faithful.
20. I need to listen more than I talk
21. Letting him drive, makes him feel better
22. We have to do things for the better of us, not what other would want.
23. It is nice to have a tall person in the house that can change light bulbs, kill bugs, and reach bowls and dishes out of my reach.
24. I miss having a queen size bed to myself.
25. Michael supports my education and me in ministry.
26. Cooking every night ... has caused me to gain more weight than i ever wanted. (+meds)
27. His hug can calm me down in seconds flat without even a word.
28. He's unfortunately the target of my bad day (sorry honey)
29. Forgiveness is the most important part of a marriage
30. Time and therapy heal all old wounds and allows for new beginnings and keeps us from becoming our parents.
31. I miss him when he's not around