In the Middle of His Will

It's all Happening....

I can't believe I am 5 days away from my wedding day.

My family (mom & sister) came in town today... and yet

I feel so overwhelmed and ill-prepared. I just feel like I am

forgetting something. I guess what really matters is that I

have my dress - and a marriage licenses and Michael shows

up. I feel like all this planning is looked down upon by others.

They see my stress as self inflicted and see my worry as me

not trusting God. But isn't God in the details, toow?I know it's

silly to cry over one detail getting down, but I have been

invisioning this day since I was 6 wearing my first communion

gown and veil around the house with weedsfrom the backyard

as my flowers.

I know it will go as God intends but I am stressed, running

out of money and I have so much to do. I am looking forward

to getting to that moment before they open the doors, kissing my

father and waiting with giddy expecation to see Michael at the

other end of the aisle. And then... our eyes meet as the doors open

and watch out... the flood gates will open. My dad and I are both

crazy crybabies. Oh well.

I think it's crazy to know that I will never be single again, after

June 2, 2007 at about 7:35pm. I am also freaking out about

changing my name. Now understand.... I don't care for "Philpott"

but it's just weird being someone for 30 years and then changing

so much about yourself in such a short amount of time.

Well - pray for me this week if you get a chance.... pick a topic

any topic... and pray... I love you all and can't wait to see you on

"Our" special day.